Have you ever seen that show? It's on Oxygen, and the producers should be ashamed of themselves. Picture a fat person, who goes through professional training for 3 months to lose weight. After their weight loss, they take revenge out on a person who made them feel ashamed while they were fat. Holy. Crap. It's so bad. So, so bad. Although I have to say, there are a few bullies in my life, both fat related and not, that it would feel really good to give the ol' "eff you" to...really? Is that how you want to celebrate your health and your new life?
That said, two things have happened since I last blogged.
1) I started having debilitating headaches. Like, headaches so bad I thought I blew an aneurysm or was having a stroke. After thousands of dollars of testing, these headaches apparently have no cause. Fantastic. Good news, I haven't had one in almost a month, so there's that. I also wasn't able to do anything physical for a few weeks because I was sick all the time, but now I'm back to walking Taco daily and sometimes jogging with him, but after 3-4 weeks of lying on the couch feeling like death, I pretty much had to start the training over from square one. BUT at least I'm starting over and not giving up!
2) Some light as potentially been shed on my perpetual fatness. Among many other things, a specialist that I see thinks I might have PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome). Even though my hormone panel a few years ago looks normal, I have every. Single. Symptom. Of. This. Syndrome! In addition to difficulty getting pregnant (check), excess weight around the middle (check), dark patches of skin (check), raspy/deep voice (check on the raspy), metabolic syndrome (check), hormone fluctuations make it darn near impossible for PCOS-ers to achieve or maintain significant weight loss. After over a year on Weight Watchers, I'm down 24 lbs (almost 20 of which was lost in the first 6 months), my doc says it's pretty impressive that I've been able to achieve this and maintain it with messed up blood sugars and hormones but to be honest, it's embarrassing and not what I want at all. So I'm now taking a host of supplements because I don't want to start another new medication...so I'm hoping the Cinnamon and EPO will help. I really don't want to take Metformin, the side effects are awful and for my issues it would be a band-aid (and I already have one of those slapped over my blood pressure).
Also...as I write this, I'm watching this episode of Extreme Weight Loss about Trina who's an RN and bawling my damn eyes out as I write this.
